Somewhere in between.

The exams have begun again, too soon for me to have missed them, too late for a long enough holiday, such is life.
The mind can't quite comprehend the gravity of the situation, the vastness of the matter under study and its own incapacity, while frequently lapsing into fonder territory, comfortable territory, liberty and listlessness.
I have adopted the life of a... bum so to speak. 'tis fun I can tell you that, very relaxing but doesnt make for a very interesting life, so neither will be this post.
Today I wore jeans, for the first time in over a week. I am blogging for the first time in over a week.
A few days ago I realised that a large part of the reason I wanted to be 'rich' so to speak is because I'm weak.
I realised I am weak.
I lack a commitment to college, the will to work and the resolve to refuse, among other things...
And frankly, I don't care.
Moderation. Mediocrity. Average. Ok.
I just don't care ok?
The world lies in limbo and I in between.
Between struggle and success.
Between loss and luck.
Between frustration and fortitude.
Between haplessness and hope.
Yea, I'm somewhere in between.