The Great Beyond

- REM

Its been awhile since I wrote something coherant, since I felt coherant. Thank god whole is greater than the sum of its parts. I need to write this way again, mostly for no good reason. I can never find a good reason. Reason doesn't explain much, its too difficult. It can still be done. I know it can. You dont know how it feels to be me. Language is the newest and biggest barrier there is in all aspects that it can control. Control, something I have come to realize is important in a different way. Why cant I control myself? What is happening? I can now cook, clean, wrap, laundry, shop and dust. I miss being lazy. I could never have imagined, I don't think its possible. I need perspectives and friends. Can you think in multiple languages? Can you do what I am thinking? I think that despite it all, I am right. I think too much sometimes, when its not even necessary. I like mindless, thought numbing movies they are good for the soul. I like John Tucker Must Die. I like all the wrong things. Songs are always significant for a reason. I can still remember, I hope it lasts, for the most part. Nostalgia is a present that needs to be forgotten. Nausea is not the same thing.

Do You Remember?

- Jack Johnson

Remember the titans.
Remember the times.
Do you remember?
Loosing my religion.
Loosing hindsight.
Do you remember what it is to win?
Passing through filmreels and photostips.
Passing the time.
Do you remember when we first met?
Validated and void.

Lost

loose yourself
in the music the moment
you know that you never ever let it go
needle in a haystack
distinctly different
insignificant, invisible.
im looking for it too.
bikini babies and melting pots
seems like it was based on a draw of lots.